StandUp

Youth for Christ. its been a while but i must say and that we can all say that in one way or another it bettered our lives even just for a little bit. even though leadership is sometimes questionable. we all cant say we couldve done better. because we quit. yes we did. not only did we turn our back on our "brothers and sisters in Christ" but we turned our backs on our church and our God. and not only are we not guilty for how we live our lives every single day through sin and guilty pleasures, but we enjoy it. so with easter coming, the ressurection of my Lord and Savior who died for us, i remember. who i am, or who i used to be. i remember when we lifted our hands eyes closed yelling at the top of our lungs not caring about how ugly our voices where knowing that only God was listening. 

What happened to... sisters eat first? my body is a temple of the holy spirit? 100% pure? i once did a share at camp about respect. and my highlight was men and women. and in my share with tears flowing down my face i said with all the pride i had in me " if anybody every disrespects any of my sisters or my brothers... i will pray for them." and through the witness of disrespect only came disrespect from my own. and prayer, is just, prayer to me. i forgot what it is like, ill admit it. and though so many of us our lost in our own life and emotion,

 i just want to remind whoever reads this that we were all lost before we went to camp. and then we all know what happened after, seeing people at their weakest yet, weakening ourselves in full trust. crying yet smiling and bringing out our true selves. it was amazing to me. and it changed me. so on this easter weekend with all these memories flowing through my head that i will NOT be standing. i will be kneeling. and with this gesture i hope to earn forgiveness. because it has been a year since i have went to church. and me and God just have too much catching up to do. 

AllTheMakings

when shes got soo much style but you cant even help but focus on her face. when your not with her you dont feel like yourself, and suddenly weakness. when the stupidest things can make you jelous. when just being with her leaves nothing but good.  when we're on the phone and dont have to say a word, because silence speaks a thousand. when i can make her cry but be the only one to make it all better. and even when she doesnt know everything about me, doesnt stop her from trying to do whats impossible.  when you feel so dam mushy that you would even blog about her. and the way shes just existing like she is, is amazing. 

UnfuckTheWorld

I always used to argue with vancouver people that vancouver is more dangerous than surrey. NO i take it back. i seriously dont understand wtf is going on. its been a month and for everyday of the month someones been murdered? i dont know what the worlds coming to when even canada is going bad. i dont like the thought of living in a world where my kids will have to live in fear of people with knives guns and nothing but bad intentions. so tell me, why cant we all just get along?

 whoever said progress was a slow process was probably talking about justice

Word?

The bad guy goes "good." that good girls gone bad. or so she thinks everybody thinks of Her. word. 

Words from his mouth become words from her mouth that grow to become word of mouth. word.

And word of mouth puts words into my mouth that makes bigger problems that words cant describe... word?

It IS all about the he said she said he said-bullshit.  quote.

So in my own words. whether truth be told or lies be uncontrolled, it doesnt matter. because my words will always effect you only in the way you want them to.

And the words of mine you choose to listen to, will always be there for you to manipulate and tell your even closer signficant other. because we all know you have more than one bestfriend boyfriend girlfriend fuck-buddy. 

And it gets to a point where its like...whats the point of even explaining? and what happened to just having a conversation? Cant we just talk, chill? better understand eachother maybe a little? without having someone else involved just this once?

Seems unlikely,

                  word.

DeepBreathes,Relaxation

If I were to compare my life to school I think my class schedule would be like this: Drama, Dance, Drama, PE, Drama, Drama, Dance, SPARE. So anyways im on my spare right now. PHEW. I wish God didnt mess up my classes and didnt make my life full of so many filipinos of all different ages, then maybe id be taking some better classes.  Finally after months I got to chill with the homeboys. And to think all I needed was some beer, a pool table, and the trilogy (superbad, wedding crashers, step brothers) add in a sprinkle of gambling and some reminiscing and I got myself one hell of a night. The late night pool jumps, the highschool football/basketball videos, and RISK! pssh icing on the cake has never been so sweet. 

"IWorkAtScienceworld"

Surrounded by kids for a whole shift, some people would hate that, but not me. i dont care what u say Kids are cool. its funny how i laugh at some of them now then realize 10 minutes later that it used to be me. I see the wierdest shit foreal.  The kids always ask for stamps, its like a must. what kind of kid doesnt like stamps? ill tell you what kind. the little boy who doesnt want one because he already has nail polish on HAHA. I see a lot of filipino nannies too. they all have the accent, and they all ask me if im filipino. and its like when a filipino thinks they see a filipino they have to ask. so they ask me, "filipino ka ba?" and i always reply, no sorry im from narnia. and as they walk away i look at them, and wait for them to realize... that i understood their tagalog. the turn around face i get it always so priceless.

part two- the leash. yeah the leash. i had one... why? because i couldnt be trusted around things that make noise/have color/ or look mildly attractive to the eye of a child. ok so i have nothing against a leash. but the other day this mom came in with a 10 yr old on her leash...A TEN YEAR OLD. but wait im not done, this leash was high tech. not like before this one had one handle that branched off into four connections. for up to four children! holy crap in the corner of my eye i thought this girl came in with dogs=S but instead i see four children-one-leash. 

i get to meet the nerdiest people. people i work with that is. i think me and ross are the only non dorks that work at scienceworld. it was a prerequisite but i had family that worked there. and i got ross the job. so every day im surrounded by world of warcraft stories. followed by transformer talk. followed by fake gun shooting from across the room... its just super dooper. im happy i have a job that i really like already hahah and not to mention i dont do shizz for my whole shift. just on the computer on the facebook, reading the news or watching youtube. 

but foreal i love working at scienceworld. its pretty much my number one ice breaker/ the only thing interesting about me. whenever i meet someone, if its akward all i have to say is i work at scienceworld. and out of nowhere conversation flows=D " i love scienceworld! do they have any new exhibits?". WELL...actually we have a new lego exhibit you should come by ill get you in free...yenno why? cuz i work at scienceworld... YES!